Dreaming of You

I sit and I think of what it would be like to see you smile once again. 
I try to picture in my mind, the closeness of your sweet face. 
I see our eyes meet, and I gaze into your eyes and I see the love
reflected back at me.
My heart starts to pound as I lay my hand on your chest,
I feel your heartbeat as it beats for only me.
There is no need for words. the feeling of physical energy
is so ecstatic, it draws us both in.  

I wrap my arms around you, as you lay your hand on my face,
you take your finger and tilt my head for our first kiss.
I am so consumed with the magic of electricity flowing through 
my veins. Your touch is all it takes to take my breath away.
As we kiss, we are soaring high above the sky, of brightly lit
with the colors of rainbows. Magical feeling , as meant to be. 
Only true love can take you there. We hold each other closer
to let our hearts beat together, to the rhythm of love, as only we can feel.
Can you feel the magic of just you and I, in loves sweet embrace. This 
land is calling me, as it is calling you. Lets once again take that journey 
into this wonderful magical land. We make the dreams come true in this place, 
a blanket of soft green grass to lay our bodies down and watch the sparkling
stars above us. I turn to look into your eyes and see the brightest sparkle of all. 


In my dream it is always so perfect, the way it should be, 
I want to live in that magical place where love lives forever. The sun is forever
shining brightly on the flowing waterfall, with droplets of water dripping from
every leaf of the wonderland. Fountains of cherubs flowing with water for the
little birds to drink and bathe. 
I want to hold you, I want to hold you forever. I want to be close to you. 
Hold your hand as we walk side by side. A walk along the ocean side.
I want to sit by your side and watch as the evening sun goes down, as
true lovers do. 
Nothing could be more magical as being with the one you love
to watch a sunset, or a sunrise, these things I want to do with you, my love.
Only you could make me feel this way. No one could ever take your place 
in  my heart. 

Who Can We Trust

I think about the times I trusted so many. 

A time when love was so fresh in my mind

I gave you my all, to have it thrown back in my face,

You used me as a doormat, for whatever purposes you could.

You said you loved me, and then walked on my heart as not other,

The footprints on my heart shows how you walked all over me,

I a forgiving soul don't blame you. I allowed it to happen, I waited

to hear your words my heart longed to hear from your sweet lips,

I love you, could break down the walls I tried to build to protect my heart. 

I suffered and cried all the time, for the things you did. I forgave you 

time and time again. Not once did I stop loving you. 

I trusted you with all my heart, you held it in your hands, and you played with it, walked all over it and used it to your advantage. Never once thinking what you were doing to me. Hurting me physically and emotionally.  Never again you would say. But at the break of dawn every day, you would begin it over and over again. Then came the day, you said the words, I had so longed to hear, little did I know you were just making things right with God and me.

It was what brought you to your demise. You taught me not to ever trust again. I missed the chance to hold your hand or hold you close, one last time, because

you passed away all alone, I could not get to you. All I could do was pray. 

I kissed your cold lips for the last time, three days; I still stayed by your side.

Nothing has ever hurt me so, as losing the one I loved. My husband my life, although I had no trust in you.

People say, I am too trusting, well so be it. It is the way I am. 

Everyone deserves a chance to be trusted, until they break it, and then it takes time to build it back, if at all possible.

But you see God stepped in, when my mind settled, he made me the way I am, I don't want to change if  I did, it would not be me. I am me and if I trust and I get hurt, that is my choice to bear the pain and not blame anyone but me.

Truth and honesty I can handle better than lies. I can deal with it, but lies I don’t handle so well. It has caused distrust, truth and trust goes hand in hand.