Friday, October 12, 2012

Destiny



Destiny
Do we ever find our destiny?
Where in my life have I gone wrong, the loneliness that is eating at my soul, it has followed me down through life as a dark cloud over my head, and it stays there to this day.
It doesn't really matter how many people are around, family or friends, there is still a loneliness of the heart that won’t go away.
Sometimes people come into your life and you think that maybe this is what you are looking for in your life to fill that void, and take the loneliness all away.
Sometimes that feeling of being alone starts to subside, until you find out it is not so.  The loneliness sets back in and that void is back, like a deep dark hole.
When you try to build yourself back up and try to accept that long lost feeling as a part of life, you find others that steps in, only to be let down again.
You sometimes think about what is your destiny, and think you have figured it out after years of not knowing,
Why has the heart been so lonely all this time, that one thing that you thought you found, and realize you are just too late, as a saying goes “a day too late and a dollar short," so what is left for a person to do?
There is nothing you can change, you can’t forget, nor can you get it out of your mind, and the loneliness is there to stay inside your heart, and nothing will take it away.
No medication can stop the pain because you realize your destined to be all alone forever and life is passing you by, you begin to only exist.
Wishing and wanting what you can’t have, for once in your life, before your life on earth ceases to exist.
A heart can only be rejected so many times before it builds enough walls, where all time and motion will cease to persist, and give up to a nothingness of loneliness. .

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